^THIS is why I stopped keeping Poptarts, Honey & Peanutbutter in my fridge- if it wasn’t there, I couldn’t binge on it!……. except my parents decided to buy me a container of PB a few months ago, and it’s been sitting in my fridge ever since. I opened it a few days ago, since I was so nervous about opening it and eating the entire thing. I’ve had 3 spoonfuls since! ^_^
And this is why you’ll never find unhealthy “snack” foods in my house!
I used to call them that when I was younger lul.
Sweetapolita is amazing. LOOK AT THIS YOU THINK IT’S ASPARAGUS BUT THEN YOU CUT IT AND IT’S CAKE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!1!!!!
I liked it better as asparagus. :3
I am going on a strict vegetarian diet. Fruits, vegetables, and eggs consumed only. Absolutely no other foods allowed. The only seasoning is salt, pepper, and the occasional salad dressing (my little splurge). I can drink tea and water. And this is literally it for the next 30 days.
The goal of this diet change is to help boost my healthy eating and to teach myself self control as well as learn appreciation for food. I want to gradually reintroduce more food options (like bread, non-dairy cheese, sweets, etc) after the 30 days to help myself control my portions and intake. I do not have good self-control when it comes to a lot of kinds of food so this is my way of helping myself out. I want to be able to enjoy various foods instead of crave them like a monster. I want to eat a tiny piece and be satisfied.
This 30 day strict vegetarianism is the start of a healthy lifestyle change. I am VERY excited. If you care to join me go for it! If not, that is all good too. :)
So I discovered that I haven’t been doing some of the different exercise machines right. It really has me upset. I feel like I have lost that month of working out because I haven’t been doing it right. But I am glad that I learned that now rather than later. Means I can get right back up and hop to it. Slightly discouraging yes, but I will make up for lost time. I am saving up for this stair-stepper machine I saw at the fitness store. It is small and easy to put away, but provides a good work out. Exactly what I need for when I am not going to the gym. Plus it is super cheap because it is on sale. c: Wee.
I also am saving up for a mini fridge and mini food cabinet. I can’t handle this anymore. I just do not have strong enough will power yet to be able to go to my boyfriend’s parent’s kitchen (we live with them) and avoid the unhealthy food. The pantry is jam-packed with exotic desserts and unhealthy foods or foods that try to be healthy but are too high in calorie for me to be able to handle eating (I am working on being able to eat more than 150 calories a meal). The fridge is full of food I can’t eat (I am pescatarian and lactose-intolerant) which makes it hard to get enough healthy calories in my system.
I am working on building my metabolism back up (it got destroyed with the disordered eating) and I admit it has been one hell of a trial. My anxiety has been tested and strained and I just can’t do this. I need to take control of this situation. I am working on being healthy and I refuse to go back to my old ways. Unhealthy food I consider dirty food because it makes me feel sick and filthy. I ate a bowl of captain crunch cereal this morning and all I want to do is puke. I am not ready to be around unhealthy food yet. I am not stable enough to be around it yet plus I am still just trying to eat a healthy amount of calories. Which in itself has made boosting my metabolism a bitch and a half.
1. Little blender
2. Mini fridge
3. Mini food cabinet
4. Mini stair stepper machine
6. Food I can actually eat
8. Green tea
9. Metabolism supplements
It’s not a diet…