I went to the gym yesterday after not going for three days (far too long but hey, life happens) and discovered that my core muscles have gotten stronger. I can lift almost 15ibs heavier with them since I first started. Made me kind of happy. My arms have gotten a lot more toned as well. Yay! :)
Also, this morning I looked in the mirror and could tell there has been a good bit of progress made. Other than confidence and measuring tape, I could tell because I am on my period (tmi?). Meaning, on my period I usually can hardly fit into my pants, I gain like a million inches around my waist, and I weigh more. Well I looked in the mirror and noticed that I actually a lot smaller. I am still bloaty, but if you can tell progress you’ve made regardless, then you KNOW you have made a hefty amount.
It felt really good to clean out my tumblr a bit. No offense to those blogs either. I just want more positivity in my life and they were all different pro-ana/mia and/or self-hate blogs. I feel hypocritical a bit because I started out with pro-ana tendencies on my blog. Plus I can totally understand being depressed and expressing yourself. But I am working on making myself healthy and positive and those blogs were really triggering.
I don’t care what you believe in. Do what makes you happy. Vent. Post whatever you want to. Your blog is your business and you are free to be yourself with no judgements passed on my part. I just am in the business of taking care of myself so I needed to let a good lot of you go. I am still apart of some disordered eating blogs but it is mostly because I have a little attachment to you. Some of you are getting healthier which inspires me. Some of you I just secretly care about and you don’t really know it but I follow you because I want to watch you grow as a person and I am genuinely concerned.
Anyway, no hard feelings. Really. Just had to take this step for myself. c: